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[hatman]

For the record:

Yes, I'm still here. And still reading your posts. (The few you guys are bothering to write that I'm allowed to see, anyway.)

I think I mentioned that I went to see a new doctor in NYC. He put me on a new kind of stimulant. It... didn't go well. Yeah, turns out that giving a stimulant to someone whose brain is already being overwhelmed by too much neural activity is still not a good idea.

I started out on a child's dosage. When that didn't go so well, the doc told me to cut it in half. When that continued to not go well, the doc told me to stop taking it. I gave it a fair chance. I tried to let my body adjust. But... no.

I've been off it for a week now, and I'm still recovering. Spent much of my time flat out on the couch, too tired/out of it to even sew. My memory of the last few weeks is even more of a vague blur than usual.

And, of course, this is when my friend and business partner finds a potential space for the bakery cafe thing and really needs my input and to have some serious conversations. Well, at least there's some possible progress on this whole project...

Oh yes, and I'm in my nocturnal phase, so even if I was feeling up to it I couldn't actually get out to view the space myself during business hours.

Well, hopefully things will come around next week. And I've got an appointment coming up with a new sleep doctor. And the NYC doc wants to consult with her about giving me a new sedative. (I'm wary, since giving sedatives to someone who is already weary and foggy all the time is also not generally a good idea, but I'll give it a try.) It's dangerous, though, because the one he has in mind is very powerful and that may not mix well with an apnea patient (i.e. someone who stops breathing when deeply asleep).

We shall see.

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[synecdochic]

Oh, argh. Meds side effects are not fun.

(fucking_meds is a good place to kvetch about them, by the way, if you don't already know about that comm!)

I'll cross my fingers that the fog and weariness is because of not being able to get good solid sleep and that sedatives improve the quality of your sleep enough to tip the balance towards "more high quality awake time", and not to the side of "make you stop breathing". A tendency to make you stop breathing even more would not be conducive to a good night's rest, no. :P

Hang in there. I'm thinking good thoughts for you.

[hatman]

Thanks.

I'm aware of the comm, yes. It's not for me. Maybe, if this keeps up, I'll change my mind.

I suspect, since the most common side effects of the sedative are exactly the sort of thing I'm already dealing with - daytime sleepiness, confusion, memory loss, dizziness, etc. - that it won't go well. But I have nothing to lose by giving it a shot. Other than some money and a couple of weeks. (As long as it doesn't prevent me from breathing, anyway.) We'll see what the sleep doc says.

Anyway, good thoughts appreciated. Thanks. :)

[synecdochic]

/nod/ Figured it was even odds that you knew about the comm and it wasn't your thing, or you didn't know about it. I find it's helpful to have a place to vent about the trials and tribulations of meds stuff, but I know that's just me!

And yeah, I really hope the end result is positive, and that if it's not positive, it's just a "okay, I lost a few weeks to being a braindead zombie" and not, you know, "oops my autonomic system forgot how to breathe in the middle of the night". We like our hatman breathing, yes we do.

[batgirl1.livejournal.com]

Yipes. O_O Paul, are you actually able to talk to these people, or do they just steamroll over you with "I have a medicine degree, harumph!"?

Is there anybody you can trust to go look at the building for you? I'd ask my Mom to look it over and then decide based on her opinion. If you have a friend or relative who is both savvy and understands what you want, you might be able to get their help while you're getting through this. If not, there are plenty of buildings in this country (assuming the one you have your eye on doesn't just keep sitting for months on end, as most real estate is wont to do these days), so you don't need to worry too hard. Focus on getting better and rested; that's what you really need right now.

[pgwfolc.livejournal.com]

She's nice about it, but she talks a lot, and very fast. Kind of like if someone gave you a sugary blended coffee and then asked you to explain Superman. I think it might have something to do with the technician, who has been there far longer than this doctor. He's a very nice, affable, entertaining guy, but he also tends to dominate the conversation. You get in a (brief) sentence, and he cheerfully monologues for five minutes.

Anyway, appointment with a new doc in a different clinic (actually, the clinic I started with back when I was in high school) later this week. We'll see how that goes.

I've had people look at the building for me. But, ultimately, it's my money and my decision. And I've been too weary to talk and think. The place is pressing us to make an offer. I talked to my partner last night for half an hour... and it drained me to the point that I spent most of the rest of the "day" flat out on the couch.

[batgirl1.livejournal.com]

Ha, of course they're pressing you for an offer: they want your money. Never let anybody rush you unless there's a fire, Paul. You get your neurons in order before worrying about anything else. Caffinated monologuers though...that's hard to deal with. O_O I hope the new doc works out better for you; two-way doctor-patient communication is kind of important. In the mean time, rest when you need to, as much as you need to, and don't kick yourself over it. You'll get things straightened out eventually, and then you can start making up for lost time if, in fact, you even need to. Do you need me to come shout at anyone for you?

[pgwfolc.livejournal.com]

What they want is to get rid of the place. They're locked into a long-term lease and they've overextended themselves.

We're moving along (because this project is already taking far longer to put together than we'd hoped), but taking it gradually. Hopefully I'll be able to recover. But there's no telling. We can't let my health hold things up. The whole reason I'm doing this in the first place is that my health makes me so unreliable as to be unemployable.

I'm not kicking myself over it. I'm just tired and frustrated.

Thanks for the offer. It'd be nice to see you. But I don't think any shouting is necessary at this time. :)

[annabtg.livejournal.com]

It's nice to hear good news about the bakery, though. :) Hope that goes well! And good luck with your medicines. ♥

[pgwfolc.livejournal.com]

Thanks. :)