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[hatman]

For the record:

Yes, I'm still here. And still reading your posts. (The few you guys are bothering to write that I'm allowed to see, anyway.)

I think I mentioned that I went to see a new doctor in NYC. He put me on a new kind of stimulant. It... didn't go well. Yeah, turns out that giving a stimulant to someone whose brain is already being overwhelmed by too much neural activity is still not a good idea.

I started out on a child's dosage. When that didn't go so well, the doc told me to cut it in half. When that continued to not go well, the doc told me to stop taking it. I gave it a fair chance. I tried to let my body adjust. But... no.

I've been off it for a week now, and I'm still recovering. Spent much of my time flat out on the couch, too tired/out of it to even sew. My memory of the last few weeks is even more of a vague blur than usual.

And, of course, this is when my friend and business partner finds a potential space for the bakery cafe thing and really needs my input and to have some serious conversations. Well, at least there's some possible progress on this whole project...

Oh yes, and I'm in my nocturnal phase, so even if I was feeling up to it I couldn't actually get out to view the space myself during business hours.

Well, hopefully things will come around next week. And I've got an appointment coming up with a new sleep doctor. And the NYC doc wants to consult with her about giving me a new sedative. (I'm wary, since giving sedatives to someone who is already weary and foggy all the time is also not generally a good idea, but I'll give it a try.) It's dangerous, though, because the one he has in mind is very powerful and that may not mix well with an apnea patient (i.e. someone who stops breathing when deeply asleep).

We shall see.

Comments

[synecdochic]

Oh, argh. Meds side effects are not fun.

(fucking_meds is a good place to kvetch about them, by the way, if you don't already know about that comm!)

I'll cross my fingers that the fog and weariness is because of not being able to get good solid sleep and that sedatives improve the quality of your sleep enough to tip the balance towards "more high quality awake time", and not to the side of "make you stop breathing". A tendency to make you stop breathing even more would not be conducive to a good night's rest, no. :P

Hang in there. I'm thinking good thoughts for you.

[hatman]

Thanks.

I'm aware of the comm, yes. It's not for me. Maybe, if this keeps up, I'll change my mind.

I suspect, since the most common side effects of the sedative are exactly the sort of thing I'm already dealing with - daytime sleepiness, confusion, memory loss, dizziness, etc. - that it won't go well. But I have nothing to lose by giving it a shot. Other than some money and a couple of weeks. (As long as it doesn't prevent me from breathing, anyway.) We'll see what the sleep doc says.

Anyway, good thoughts appreciated. Thanks. :)

[synecdochic]

/nod/ Figured it was even odds that you knew about the comm and it wasn't your thing, or you didn't know about it. I find it's helpful to have a place to vent about the trials and tribulations of meds stuff, but I know that's just me!

And yeah, I really hope the end result is positive, and that if it's not positive, it's just a "okay, I lost a few weeks to being a braindead zombie" and not, you know, "oops my autonomic system forgot how to breathe in the middle of the night". We like our hatman breathing, yes we do.