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[hatman]

For the record:

Yes, I'm still here. And still reading your posts. (The few you guys are bothering to write that I'm allowed to see, anyway.)

I think I mentioned that I went to see a new doctor in NYC. He put me on a new kind of stimulant. It... didn't go well. Yeah, turns out that giving a stimulant to someone whose brain is already being overwhelmed by too much neural activity is still not a good idea.

I started out on a child's dosage. When that didn't go so well, the doc told me to cut it in half. When that continued to not go well, the doc told me to stop taking it. I gave it a fair chance. I tried to let my body adjust. But... no.

I've been off it for a week now, and I'm still recovering. Spent much of my time flat out on the couch, too tired/out of it to even sew. My memory of the last few weeks is even more of a vague blur than usual.

And, of course, this is when my friend and business partner finds a potential space for the bakery cafe thing and really needs my input and to have some serious conversations. Well, at least there's some possible progress on this whole project...

Oh yes, and I'm in my nocturnal phase, so even if I was feeling up to it I couldn't actually get out to view the space myself during business hours.

Well, hopefully things will come around next week. And I've got an appointment coming up with a new sleep doctor. And the NYC doc wants to consult with her about giving me a new sedative. (I'm wary, since giving sedatives to someone who is already weary and foggy all the time is also not generally a good idea, but I'll give it a try.) It's dangerous, though, because the one he has in mind is very powerful and that may not mix well with an apnea patient (i.e. someone who stops breathing when deeply asleep).

We shall see.

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[pgwfolc.livejournal.com]

She's nice about it, but she talks a lot, and very fast. Kind of like if someone gave you a sugary blended coffee and then asked you to explain Superman. I think it might have something to do with the technician, who has been there far longer than this doctor. He's a very nice, affable, entertaining guy, but he also tends to dominate the conversation. You get in a (brief) sentence, and he cheerfully monologues for five minutes.

Anyway, appointment with a new doc in a different clinic (actually, the clinic I started with back when I was in high school) later this week. We'll see how that goes.

I've had people look at the building for me. But, ultimately, it's my money and my decision. And I've been too weary to talk and think. The place is pressing us to make an offer. I talked to my partner last night for half an hour... and it drained me to the point that I spent most of the rest of the "day" flat out on the couch.

[batgirl1.livejournal.com]

Ha, of course they're pressing you for an offer: they want your money. Never let anybody rush you unless there's a fire, Paul. You get your neurons in order before worrying about anything else. Caffinated monologuers though...that's hard to deal with. O_O I hope the new doc works out better for you; two-way doctor-patient communication is kind of important. In the mean time, rest when you need to, as much as you need to, and don't kick yourself over it. You'll get things straightened out eventually, and then you can start making up for lost time if, in fact, you even need to. Do you need me to come shout at anyone for you?

[pgwfolc.livejournal.com]

What they want is to get rid of the place. They're locked into a long-term lease and they've overextended themselves.

We're moving along (because this project is already taking far longer to put together than we'd hoped), but taking it gradually. Hopefully I'll be able to recover. But there's no telling. We can't let my health hold things up. The whole reason I'm doing this in the first place is that my health makes me so unreliable as to be unemployable.

I'm not kicking myself over it. I'm just tired and frustrated.

Thanks for the offer. It'd be nice to see you. But I don't think any shouting is necessary at this time. :)