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[hatman]

I've been thinking lately about how I'm not happy with the person I've become. I miss the person I was, the one who met the world with a smile, a beanie copter, and a thoughtful observation. Not sure how to get back to that place. Been thinking of posting about that, to ask for your thoughts on the matter.

In the meantime, htbthomas posted this meme today, which fits right in with that train of thought. My head is still fogged up from sleep issues (more than usual, on both counts - thanks to side effects from the latest attempt, the last four months or so of my life are a drugged blur), but I'll do my best. Because I think we could all use it:

Post a comment, and I will reply with one or two reasons why I think you're great. In return, you have to post this same meme on your blog and comment for other people.

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[pgwfolc.livejournal.com]

I appreciate the respect and understanding.

Yes, I've tried alternative therapies. At least, to the extent I'm comfortable with. I always try to remember that aspirin, the first "miracle drug," was "discovered" because it's the active ingredient in willow bark tea. But I believe in science, and I'm not going to go chasing after every bit of mumbo jumbo.

I've been seeing experts in a variety of fields for over a decade now. A fantastic idea or amazing insight would be most welcome, but it's not really fair to expect it. I'm sorry if I seem to be asking too much. But there's always the possibility that, even now, a new perspective will open something up.

I'm just not sure what I am capable of at this point. I make plans, but, no matter which way I turn, one thing or another always seems to get in the way.

Well, except for the few hours here and there I get to spend being an uncle. That's the best. I love those kids, and the time we spend together does us all good. And, related, I've made each of them a personalized stuffed animal. A labor of love, not really practical or cost effective, but it's something I made, and I'm proud of that. (I have some pictures, if you're interested.)

And, maybe I'll get back to some other projects, like reading for Librivox, or getting friends to help me make that silly animated movie I scripted a couple of years back, or dropping by the next local Habitat build site, if and when they manage to get that going (and I'm awake and able to drive and physically up to pitching in...).

But sometime, somehow, I'm going to need a viable path forward. Something real and productive. Something that actually makes a difference in the world. And can earn me some actual money. And I have no idea what that would be or how I could get there.

Anyway... thanks again for listening, and for taking the time out of your busy day.